that this year probably won’t go as expected;
that your family won’t suddenly be less disfunctional;
that true change –
requires hard work and not just best intentions.
that you cannot go back;
that you don’t get a re-do;
that you can only move forward and
that you might do better next time a similar set of circumstances
that not everyone who hurt you will appologize;
that not everyone you’ve hurt has told you that you hurt them;
that some of them will appologize and then hurt you again
and that you will likely do the same.
Accept your humanity
that this year may be your last;
that you need to treat it as if it were;
with humility and courage and realistic expectations.
that this year may not be your last;
that you won’t get it right either way;
that you will make some old mistakes and some new ones.
Accept who you are.
Then keep bettering yourself.
that you will still be you
and still need more bettering